Joy's Confession...

Years had passed and I can't turn back the past. I am here now in my present, trying to have a good life for my future. It seems that it's just happened yesterday; wherein I'm a child playing games with my childhood friends. But when I see myself in the mirror, I go back to reality and said; now I'm a grown up girl sooner becoming a lady. I can't play games anymore, the way I played as a little child before. Because now, I'm the player of my own game and it's how to drive my own destiny.

I don't want to put myself into pressure. I know I had a lot of responsibilities. I know I had a lot of problems. But all I can do is to be happy. Yes, to be happy. Why do I need to be pressure of that responsibilities and problems when I know that I can accomplish and solve all of it since I believe that God is always after me. Being happy and seems that you are free from any toxic in this world is a choice. It is my philosophy in life and I love the way I live.

No one is perfect and I never dreamed to be one. Because imperfection makes me a better individual. I made mistakes, I got people hurt. Sometimes, I am careless not knowing I hurt someone's feeling. Sometimes, I am selfish not knowing what am I doing is for my own regardless to the people surrounds me. Sometimes, I'm too much in doing such naughty things as if I don't know that God is looking at me. That's me. I'm not afraid to do bad things but I always look back of what I did. I admit my mistakes and always learn from it.

I love myself because I love God. I love God because he taught me how to love and of course he is my creator. God is the center of my life now that's why I live a happy life.

It's been a long journey for me before the so called real success, fulfillment, and contentment in life. But I know I can make it happen, because I know that nothing is impossible if I believe.